WILD
I took the time I needed
Went back and tried to reset
I still do not know
If this phase is over by now
The pain just settled in
my body uninvited
Seized the light
And took down the party in my mind
I guess I hate the silence
The tears have kept me quiet
And I've learned we only cry
When we loose somehow
My shoulders are so tight
I no longer dream at night
And all I do is feeling guilty for being sad
I can't keep doin' this
Find the cure and pure bliss
I can't keep doin' this
Fix my heart and point the glitch
Can you tell me what I feel at night ?
'Cause I can't even find
The right words to describe
Can you tell me why I'm feelin' sad ?
Can you tell me why I'm feelin' mad ?
I can't seem to act normal
When my thoughts go wild
So I came home to complain
You hugged me then you listened
I said « you're the only landmark
On this wrinkled map »
I chase things I don't posess
I use to hate materialism
I'm like a trapped bird
That is slowly loosing its feathers
I don't know what I'm looking for
My head is full
'Cause I'm tired of hearing « lesson learned »
And I regret how much I believed in the future
A COUPLE OF DAYS
Listen to me, believe me
when I say there's nothing wrong with us
I got something to tell you
Oh baby trust me
I have always said that I love you to death
That I'll always stay with you
I always do
Can I share it ?
This overwhelming monotony I feel
There must be something to do
I already know
I'm gonna leave baby don't be mad
You have nothing to do with that
Won't even have the time to notice I'm gone
I want to run away just for a while
Leave for a couple of days out of town
I don't need to know where I'm going
I want the nightfall I want the sun
I wanna feel summer's just begun
I'm just living a dream that I made up
I was wilder when I was younger
And I just can't stand that
It was my signature
Then I wonder if I'm still able
To do things that I love
And that don't necessarily includes you
Can I sayit ?
That I'm craving a long moment on my own
Find the right spot by a lake
And dive right in
I'm gonna leave baby don't be mad
You have nothing to do with that
Won't even have the time to notice I'm gone
I want to run away and free my mind
Write a couple of songs
Take my time
I don't need to know where I'm going
I want the river I want the sun
I wanna break free and have some fun
I'm just living a dream that I made up
FROM TIME TO TIME
I remember talkin' about you a lot in my previous albums
I was driving the other day by the coast
And then this music came on
Like a flasback that burns too bright I almost couldn't see the road
I pictured the first time that I saw you
I was so nervous that I placed my hands underneath the table
We went for a walk and the story began
It's crazy how simple and natural that was
I remember everything now.
I try to hide it but when this song is on
It always takes me back
I can't even tell you
All the memories I've got
Back when I was 22
And then from time to time
I wonder what my life would be like
If I stayed with you
It lasted a year and we've never really been together
If you already know my song « Simple » then
You would know what I'm talkin' about
This love was a full concept, a very singular state of mind
I was contempling you like a work of art
Always saving a space for you in my heart
I'm not really a mystical but this feeling was at the time my religion
We took different roads and I'm glad I was mature enough not to dwell on the past
I know it may sounds like it but I'm just sharing a thought
I ran into you about a year ago in Paris
And you looked different and caught by your demons again
I'm just hoping you're ok now
Now you're so far gone
Locked in my past where you belong
HAVE IT ALL
Am I doing this right babe ?
And please, just be honest
You see I got lost somewhere
A place with no name
I swear this time I will listen
And all my friends look unwell
Anxieties and stress
I notice they try to relate to mine
But they can't
I wish I could have it all
Money, fame, career and love
I wish I could turn back time
Take some days off to unwind
Then I'll try to play it cool
Give new ideas time to bloom
I wish I could have it all
Recognition and control
I wish I just could think less
So I'll save some time off for myself
Am I depriving my brain
Of some kind of ambition
Or have I overestimated my damn potential
Wanted to be seen, leave a legacy
My dreams aren't rare and that's alright with me
But there is so much more to do
It's hard to process
Oh how could it be enough ?
You and I is a gift I rely on
I will take my chances
I will design a life
Where all the stars remain aligned
I wish I could have it all
I don't wanna come undone
I wish I could live things twice
Wish I didn't have to sleep at night
Now I'll try to play it cool
Give my ideas time to bloom
I wish I could have it all
My sanity, protect my soul
I wish I could expect less
I just need to save some time for myself
THE KEEPER
Ain't it funny
The way you know me so well
I no longer have secrets
Ain't it funny
The way you anticipate
Share my dreams and share my bed
You know me so well
And I don't wanna scare you or put up a fight
But you know I need lonely times
More than once in a while
So darlin' look no further
I'm not gonna leave this world
I've been searching for you long enough
Be well aware of my luck
Make sure it never burns
And you know I have told everyone
You're such a keeper
Ain't it funny
The way we communicate
When the words don't need to be said
I still can't believe it
Ain't it funny
Our endless bottles of wine
Watching F.R.I.E.N.D.S 'til you close your eyes
Blow the candles, hold you tight
And I don't wanna scare you or put up a fight
But you know I need lonely times
More than once in a while
The keeper, the keeper
UNTIL I COLLAPSE
One thing I know now
Is that I cannot go on like that
The longer I stay the stronger it makes me mad
I hate the silence so loud
That keeps me busy 'til I throw it all away
Lose control of my body
I thought I knew myself the whole time
I was just torturing my soul somehow
It's never enough until I collapse
And I tend to forget we only live once
And each day I try to run too many miles
I can't keep up, I'm feelin' worn now
This woman told me the truth, a diagnosis
I knew the moment I heard it
It would change my whole world
Pictured a white room and doors
I kicked them open as usual
I cried and I cried
I think I've waited too long
I thought I knew myself the whole time
I was just torturing my soul somehow
It's never enough until I collapse
And I tend to forget we only live once
And each day I try to run too many miles
I can't keep up, I'm feelin' torn now
And I've been following the rules
It's been four months
I can't give up on you
I resent my addictions, my bad habits
The toxic rituals, land back on my feet
Oh My
I thought I could live forever like that
I can't even count the things I realized
So many doors I have to close
« What's essential now ? »
And I tend to forget I can take my time
Listen to and respect the body I've got
I can't keep up
I can't keep up
Otherwise I'll die
FAREWELL
I bid to my old self
'Cause when met
I shut some doors
I won't open again
It's hard to look back
I bid farewell
To my youth and my loneliness
I see my face and my body changing
It's hard to see that
Time flies, I can't even ask for help
Won't let down
Don't wanna fight
I don't even ask for help
Won't let down and I wonder
Don't wanna try
To make up for lost time
Won't hold back the life I once had
I know I couldn't have a better past
You can call it what you want
'Cause I can't make it last
I bid farewell to a couple friends
And I miss them
The alchemy doesn't feel quite the same
It's hard to see that
Even if I'd want to create more
Good ideas won't come up like before
I lose myself in fear of losing hope
It's hard to think that
Oh I'm leaving tonight
A suitcase, a couple bags
And I'll drive until it's dark
And free my mind
I'll free my mind
I can't make it last
It's farewell
IT'LL BE FINE
I've been wanting my damn life
A shelter for my quiet and lonely times
I thought about buying a house
Somewhere by a lake in a small town
I know this isn't what I need yet
I'm way too young to think about it
For now it'll be fine
I'll keep doin' my shit for a while
All the things I'm good at
Be still and be loud
I have the greatest lover by my side
And I have plans for a lifetime
I've been worrying way too much
Your words are as delicate as your touch
Sometimes I miss my oldself
But you still ignore you're curing me as well
I haven't worked on my issues yet
I hope I'll never leave a word unspoken
For now it'll be fine
I'll keep doin' my shit for a while
All the things I'm great at
Be still and be loud
I have the greatest lover by my side
And I have plans for a lifetime
Beautiful but ever so fragile
Silence oftentimes paves a path
I'll hold onto these words I learned
I've reached the point of no return
My eyes are leaking drops of happiness
I really did my best
For now it'll be fine
I'll keep doin' my shit for a while
All the things I'm great at
Be soft and be hard
I have the greatest lover by my side
Who gets me everytime
Listen hear me out
I'll keep on writing and singing the things
I just can't live without
Say what's on my heart
I know I will get older anyhow
So I'll just keep that in mind
ENDLESS RIVERS
I'm in the middle of a brand new club
They let me sit around
They raise their glasses to the power of ambition
Like a privilege they proudly think they've been gifted
Deserving faces
I've been witnessing every minute of it
They try to convince you
Money is the key to satisfy any desire
I tend to become like them
A voice inside my head is asking me to fight
I'm drowning in endless rivers
Battling with the waters
And I forgot my truth and I tend to feel sorry for myself
If that's the life they want
I'm glad we're not the same
I'm turning 30
And I'm dating someone who's older than me
My goals have changed
But I don't like the raw pressure that goes with them
Like a privilege I'm always thrilled I'm invited
To the garden parties
Fashionista's speeches, houses by the sea
I'm slowly getting used to it
I crave what I didn't want to fall for
There's no way back
Now I know
They try to convince you
Money is the key to be proud of who you are
I tend to become like them
A voice inside my head is asking me to fight
I'm drowning in endless rivers
Battling with the waters
And I forgot my truth and I tend to feel sorry for myself
If that's the life they want
I'm glad we're not the same
HERE I GO
I have been looking back on my life lately
How the wind blew away the days I was so lonely
I'm wondering what it would be like to still be searching
For the life we lead
I can tell now we have it all
An eternal setting sun
You've got a heart so inviting
I can't help jumpin' in
Here I go
I can count on you in the dark
Fix me if I fall apart
I'm not the same when you leave town
I'm no longer scared to fight
Here I go
We have been rushing to know what we might become
I'll keep you safe, buy us a home
I'm convering you with the daily embraces you need
And you look at me like I was one of these mythical things
Let's get the hell outta here
I know a place so romantic
I will read in your eyes some poetry
I NEEDED YOU TONIGHT
It's saturday night in summer, alone
I hear some people laughing through the window
First thing that crossed my mind in my cringy twisted thoughts
Is « look at where you are now, here you're never gonna be found »
Hold on tight, I miss what's used to be ours
I'm crumbling into pieces
I needed you tonight
Time's running through our fingers
Are we all just settling down ?
I can't seem to find a friend
When my lover's not around
What's the point of making plans
If you're not here with me tonight
So I would tell you how I feel lately
That I've never felt this lonely, trust me
You'll always be the one I deeply feel related to
We've reached the highest point of « no secrets » years ago
I never knew how to cry for help
It's the goddamn fight of mine
I'm crumbling into pieces
I needed to talk tonight
The kind of deep conversation we can only have
I've lost a couple friends and I still don't know why
What's the point of making plans
If you can't make them with me tonight
MORE THAN I SHOULD
I don't quite know what to do anymore
Too many things left unsaid
I should let you go
You know I put my life on hold
Evolved around your emotions
Tried to reach many times
What a quiet overdue goodbye
When you were up
When you were down
I've always given you my best
More than I should have
When you were up
When you were down
I've tried to understand
More than I should have
You know I write more than I speak
And all of this just me weak
I have been broken in the past
It's a misery you act like that
Still growing up at 29
I guess your thoughts are intertwined
I don't wanna feel like this anymore
Ease the pain
I did nothing wrong
I pay a price I can't afford
I don't call it a battle
If I already lost