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Control

I’ve always known this day would come

I never thought it would happen so young

I wrote so many songs ‘bout relationships

I became an expert I know all the tricks

It comes, it goes, creates a storm

The one I’ve been fighting since I was born

I’ve read so many speeches ‘bout fantasy

I became an expert at 26

Ah, I thank God every night

Ah, Oh my baby’s here tonight

My love is yours to keep

You already gave enough

The question I may have…

 

If I’m losing control

Tell me what else do I own ?

I’ve been protecting myself

And I know it doesn’t make sense

If I’m losing control

You’re proving me I get it wrong

I’ve been protecting myself

Now I’m using the present tense

Singing

And I’m losing control

And I’m losing control 

Am I losing control ?

 

I’ve been looking back a lot lately

I underestimated you baby

I took some time, I’ve run out of energy

Of being someone I thought I could be

It’s been ages, different places

Always saving my trust for someone else

It’s scaring me to death I wish you could see

There’s no place for two in the life I lead

Ah, I thank God every night

Ah, Oh my baby’s here tonight

My love is yours to keep

You already gave enough

The question I may have…

 

If I’m losing control

Tell me what else do I own ?

I’ve been protecting myself

And I know it doesn’t make sense

If I’m losing control

You’re proving me I get it wrong

I’ve been protecting myself

Now I’m using the present tense

Singing

And I’m losing control

And I’m losing control 

Am I losing control ?

Baby, 

 

And when you’re gone I'm vulnerable

Don’t know where all of this comes from

 

If I’m losing control

Tell me what else do I own ?

I’ve been protecting myself

(Protecting myself baby)

And I know it doesn’t make sense

If I’m losing control

You’re proving me I get it wrong

I’ve been protecting myself

You knew the truth in advance

Singing

And I’m losing control

And I’m losing control 

(Can’t fight the feeling)

(I know you’re the one I need

And I do mean it baby)

Am I losing control ?

Baby

 

Out Of My Feelings

The more I get older

The less I’m confident

Creativity’s on hold

I thought this could never end

I’m being vulnerable

I don’t know where to stand

Am I too young for this though

I no longer have a plan

 

Oh my my my

I thought I was fine

Even found the love I needed back in time

Oh, oh

I’m not satisfied

Want more for this life

For the upcoming years like I did in the past

Oh, oh

 

Did I miss the point of it

Can’t let it control my life

No

The beauty of the unknown

I'd rather live in the now

 

And I see it, all I'm needing for this life

I can feel it, I can't reach it

I can't touch it in the dark

It's time I had some time alone

And face the fears I can't deny 

It's time I figured it all out

Go back to the place where I was

 

The more I talk about it

The less I seem to know

Have I done my time here

Is it ok to let go

Am I cursed by ambition

I don’t know where to stand

Am I too old for this though

I don’t have any other plan

 

Oh my my my

I can't seem to find

Did I make a big deal out of it from the start

No

And I’m sitting here singing you tonight

They say everything is matter of time

Oh, oh

 

What if it was just a phase

What if it never comes back

The beauty of the unknown

I’d rather live in the now

 

And I see it, all I'm needing for this life

I can feel it, I can't reach it

I can't touch it in the dark

It's time I had some time alone

And face the fears I can't deny 

It's time I figured it all out

Go back to the place where I was

 

Too many nights, too many thoughts

Or am I just romancing my past

I'm falling out of my feelings

I'm falling out of my feelings

Too many nights, too many thoughts

Am I overestimating my past

I'm falling out of my feelings

I'm falling out of my feelings

 

And I see it, all I'm needing for this life

I can feel it, I can't reach it

I can't touch it in the dark

It's time I had some time alone

And face the fears I can't deny 

It's time I figured it all out

Go back to the place where I was

 

Ego

It feels I’ve never waited on someone but you

And I gave you time to heal

I’m alone in the front row 

And I’m saving you a seat right next to me

It feels I’ve held onto something that disappeared

I know it’s bigger than me

I’m confused in my spirit but

My legacy and all of my souvenirs are real

 

It comes back around

The question that’s tearing me down

Every time I work on myself

My ego breaks my confidence

I cannot help but think it’s my fault

From the beginning to the end

I’m not only losing you

I’m losing my ego too

Ego, ego, ego

I’m not only losing you

I’m losing my ego too

 

It feels my body’s trying to talk to me for weeks

And I started taking pills

It didn’t do anything

I start to get the pain I’m dealing with

The fear

Day and night, I try to fight

It doesn’t seem to go away with time

Should get the help I thought I didn’t need

I lost a part of my identity

And I’m glad that you don’t see

What all of this is doing to me

I’m glad that you don’t see

 

It comes back around

The question that’s tearing me down

Every time I work on myself

My ego breaks my confidence

I cannot help but think it’s my fault

From the beginning to the end

I’m not only losing you

I’m losing my ego too

Ego, ego, ego

I’m not only losing you

I’m losing my ego too

I’ve been by your side

Rooting for you for the longest time

In every crowd, in every space

Somehow I still search for your face

I discovered the pain I caused you

Too late to start all over again

I wish that it wasn’t true

I don’t think I can get through

 

Somehow if you manage

To give you some time to rest

Find another one

Oh, I built a hope in emptiness

Chasing what’s already gone

The pieces that you left

 

It comes back around

The question that’s tearing me down

Every time I work on myself

My ego breaks my confidence

I cannot help but think it’s my fault

From the beginning to the end

I’m not only losing you

I’m losing my ego too

Ego, ego, ego

I’m not only losing you

I’m losing my ego too

 

The Best I Can

I've been thinking 'bout the time when we were kids

I've been thinking 'bout the crucial moments that we shared

When I look back on it

I know it, I always thought you were different from me and others

You never seem to get hurt

'Cause you never listen to what I say

You pretend it has to be your way

 

I know it's none of my business

But you don't look really well

I no longer understand you

I hate it's not in my hands

 

I do the best I can

Only you can save yourself

Save you from despair 

And it's not in my hands

You got lost in your land

Blew things out of proportion

Everyone needs to learn 

How to fit in this world 

 

I've been thinking 'bout the way you always try

To end a conversation before it even starts

And when I pursue it, you know it

You say you're doing fine

You never speak anyone

You must be burning inside

 

I know it's none of my business

But you don't look really well

I no longer understand you

I hate it's not in my hands

 

I do the best I can

Only you can save yourself

Save you from despair 

And it's not in my hands

You got lost in your land

Blew things out of proportion

Everyone needs to learn 

How to fit in this world 

 

I do the best I can

Only you can save yourself

Save you from despair 

And it's not in my hands

You got lost in your land

Blew things out of proportion

Everyone needs to learn 

How to fit in this world 

 

Everyone needs to learn 

How to fit in this world 

 

Everything's Changing

I've been doing some thinking

Life is not like it once was

Since the moment you showed up

I've been listing what I miss

Projects I put efforts in

From a past you never knew

 

Tell you what

Oh I will tell you what I left and kept behind just for you

Tell me why

Oh please just tell me why

I have a feeling so peculiar

 

Everything's changing

You're my new beginning 

Haven't felt like this for quite some time

 

I was right and you worth it

Your name's dancing on my lips

All of your mates became mine

I have lots of boundless dreams

Play my best songs for a crowd

Travel solo and free my mind

 

Too many dreams not enough time

Been trying to be bold my whole life

(Too many dreams not enough time)

Alright

 

Tell you what

Oh I will tell you what I left and kept behind just for you

Tell me why

Oh please just tell me why

I have a feeling so peculiar

 

Everything's changing

You're my new beginning 

Haven't felt like this for quite some time

It feels alright, baby

Everything's changing

 

Then I've come to realize 

I should stop the clock and reset time

Because I don't recall being so hard on myself when I was young

I won't forget I have been looking for you while dreaming

I'm just not ready to let go

 

Everything's changing

You're my new beginning 

Haven't felt like this for quite some time

It feels alright, baby

Everything's changing

 

From Afar

I wanted you to be my friend

I broke more hearts than I could mend

And you know me like no one else

Never saw it as a problem

I think of all the things that it taught me

We lived a whole different story

The truth is I never heard you heart beating

And I can’t let go

And I can’t let go 

But everyone knows

There’s no friendship if this friend loves you

 

For all this time I believe I was wrong

You kept inside the secret for too long

And nobody saw what was going on

And for all this time you have been holding on

Fearing the human feeling that is love

In this case we just both lose it all

 

Damn, I’ve been blind

I’m losing my mind, against the tide

I needed you

I didn’t want to do this to you

I know by now you said you were leaving

To love me from afar, I know that it’s true

But in a way, I lost you

Oh

 

I wanted you to be my friend

The one I call when I’m in pain

And you have seen all my flaws

Been here when I was heartbroken

I think of all the things that you taught me

Be strong and fight for my beliefs

The truth is I never heard your heart beating

I can’t let you go

I can’t let you go

The time you borrow is your way to pack up and go

 

For all this time I believe I was wrong

You kept inside the secret for too long

And nobody saw what was going on

And for all this time you have been holding on

Fearing the human feeling that is love

In this case we just both lose it all

 

Damn, I’ve been blind

I’m losing my mind, against the tide

I needed you

I didn’t want to do this to you

I know by now you said you were leaving

To love me from afar, I know that it’s true

But in a way, I lost you

Oh

 

I tried to find other types of friends

Never found back this kind of wonderment

Don’t blame me if I thought that I could replace you

I tried to act like it didn’t happen

But no one can fight with life changes

I have to deal with it and move on

Maybe the best is yet to come

I’m calling, I’m calling, I’m calling

 

Damn, I’ve been blind

I’m losing my mind, against the tide

I needed you

I didn’t want to do this to you

I know by now you said you were leaving

To love me from afar, I know that it’s true

But in a way, I lost you

Oh

 

I Know You Can

I just can't believe

After all of these years you still don't know which way to go

And I've done anything to help you

But not too much to make you think

I took the decision for you

I just care about how you feel

And how you deal with it and now I see

 

The things that made you weak

And now those you can speak of

I saw you climb every mountain

I know you can so take a chance

So why would you do it later

You've seen it all 

So take a turn

You're drowning yourself 

I'm convinced that you worth the fight

I said it like a million times

 

I can't stand up here

And watch you wasting your talents

Cause your boundaries are just mental 

I don't call necessarily everyday after all that we've been through

You know... 

Your ego, your plans

No one knows where they'll land

But I get you my friend, yeah

I want you to know that I see

 

The things that made you weak

And now those you can speak of

I saw you climb every mountain

I know you can so take a chance

So why would you do it later

You've seen it all 

So take a turn

You're drowning yourself 

I'm convinced that you worth the fight

I said it like a million times

 

The things that made you weak

And now those you can speak of

I saw you climb every mountain

I know you can so take a chance

So why would you do it later

You've seen it all 

So take a turn

You're drowning yourself 

I'm convinced that you worth the fight

I said it like a million times

 

Come On

I went out for a walk 'till late

I guess I'm running away from my fate

Was waiting for my thoughts to fade

Then I came home 

"Where have you been?"

I smiled like nothing ever happened

I need a cigarette

It's all in my head

 

Come on, come on

I won't give it up

Come on, the fight is harder and longer than I thought

I've been having a hard time trying

Like a plane that is never landing

Come on, come on

I won't give it up

I'll shine again once my bones are mended

I've been having a hard time living 

No one really knows how I'm feeling

 

I'm sorry for what I said last night

Sometimes I'm painting everything in black

A flickering of all my mistakes

Forgot what it feels like to be calm

My plans and my ego are coming down

All that I'm asking is a chance to believe in

 

Come on, come on

I won't give it up

Come on, the fight is harder and longer than I thought

I've been having a hard time trying

Like a plane that is never landing

Come on, come on

I won't give it up

I'll shine again once my bones are mended

I've been having a hard time living 

No one really knows how I'm feeling

 

I'm getting better I'm almost there

I don't wanna give up on myself

I'm walking a thin line

But I know the road

I know the road

 

Come on, come on

I won't give it up

Come on, the fight is harder and longer than I thought

I've been having a hard time trying

Like a plane that is never landing

Come on, come on

I won't give it up

I'll shine again once my bones are mended

I've been having a hard time living 

No one really knows how I'm feeling

 

Come on, come on, come on

(I've been having a trying)

Come on, come on, come on

(Like a plane that is never landing)

 
 

Harder Than A Breakup

No one else can break the silence

I thought that I was on the mend

The wound is still wide open

I wanted to cure by myself

It's even harder I thought it'd be

I wonder what is left of me

I'm surrounded but I'm alone

This kind of phase lasts way too long

 

I cannot help this feeling and I just can't pretend

I should stop over thinking maybe stand up for myself

And I'm confronting my issues

You said so many things that none of us could forget

But I'm not the architect of all the mess that's been made

And I have to let it go

 

It's harder than a breakup

I come undone

And all I really wanted was a reason

You never said or acted like you were sorry

You don't understand what you're doing to me

It's harder than a breakup

I come undone

I'm left with nothing and I guess I only believe the things I see

You don't understand what you're doing to me

 

So tell me when it's gonna end

I'm done searching for a second plan

The wound is still wide open

My recovery has just begun

Can't wait to see what's next for me

I'm even thrilled by a wait and see

I'm surrounded, I'm already loved

Being punished for nothing way too long

 

I cannot help this feeling and I just can't pretend

I should stop over thinking maybe stand up for myself

And I'm confronting my issues

You said so many things that none of us could forget

But I'm not the architect of all the mess that's been made

And I have to let it go

 

It's harder than a breakup

I come undone

And all I really wanted was a reason

You never said or acted like you were sorry

You don't understand what you're doing to me

It's harder than a breakup

I come undone

I'm left with nothing and I guess I only believe the things I see

You don't understand what you're doing to me

 

I know that I'll get better

This song as a reminder

I'll show you what it's like to not forgive

I know that I'll get better 

This song to give me power

And that's the price to pay to be free anyway 

 

It's harder than a breakup

I come undone

And all I really wanted was a reason

You never said or acted like you were sorry

You don't understand what you're doing to me

It's harder than a breakup

I come undone

I'm left with nothing and I guess I only believe the things I see

You don't understand what you're doing to me

 

know that I'll get better

This song as a reminder

I'll show you what it's like to not forgive

I know that I'll get better 

This song to give me power

And that's the price to pay to be free in the end

 

Rely

Your love is pure and I can tell

You gave me the cure to start over again

I've been absent for way too long

Only the most difficult animal to tame

I'm pacing back and forth 

I can't seem to write a song

I'm losing track of space and time

Since you came along

I'm planing a whole life with you

The future is on

You already proved it

I know you're the one

 

I know you're the one

 

Can I stay a bit longer with you ?

(I've always loved being alone)

Can you stay a bit before you go home ?

(I always miss you when you're gone)

Even in my quiet times you know how I feel

Can rely on you like I rely on me

(You make me feel so much better)

 

We walk the shore you hold my hand

À nice sensation we could face anything

Your quiet mind, you look at me

Your reassuring speeches, your sincerity

I burry all my fears deep enough to let go

No longer count the steps or the rules to follow

I'm planing a whole life with you

You know that it's on

You already proved it

I know you're the one

 

I know you're the one

(I know baby)

 

Can I stay a bit longer with you ?

(I've always loved being alone)

Can you stay a bit before you go home ?

(I always miss you when you're gone)

Even in my quiet times you know how I feel

Can rely on you like I rely on me

(You make me feel so much better)

 

Stay a while

Stay the night

Stay here with me by my side

 

Can I stay a bit longer with you ?

(I've always loved being alone)

Can you stay a bit before you go home ?

(I always miss you when you're gone)

Even in my quiet times you know how I feel

Can rely on you like I rely on me

(You make me feel so much better)

 

If It's For You

Have I done enough ?

Is it over now ?

I blinked my eyes and everything has changed

And maybe that's the way it goes

I hear a silence I'm afraid of

 

I know every end bad news beginnings

I wish I could find another space between

While I keep wasting my time

Trying to guess what's gonna be next

I know only good things have to end

I don't wanna be the one who pretends

I should stop wasting my time

Trying to find a way to rewind 

 

I can't help but I need it

I don't want any regrets

Is it too soon or too late ?

Too many words left unsaid

 

I'm trying to find a way to hold and keep my head up high 

I don't wanna lose the things that took me years to have

I don't wanna come undone way too soon

I can't give up now even if it's for you

 

I wish I'll keep a thin skin

That I'll never lose my writing skills

Oh maybe that's what my mama said

"The good ideas come in your twenties"

 

I know every year is meant to disappear

I wish I could use a shield for my fears

While I keep wasting my time trying to guess what's gonna be next

I know only good moments have to end

I don't wanna start all over again

I should stop wasting my time trying to fin a way to go back

 

I can't help but I need it

I don't want any regrets

Is it too soon or too late ?

Too many words left unsaid

 

I'm trying to find a way to hold and keep my head up high 

I don't wanna lose the things that took me years to have

I don't wanna come undone way too soon

I can't give up now even if it's for you

 

I'm afraid it's not enough

I'm afraid of giving up

I'm afraid it's not enough 

But I'm just trying to find

 

I'm trying to find a way to hold and keep my head up high 

I don't wanna miss the things I used to have

I don't wanna come undone way too soon

I can't give up now even if it's for you

I'm trying to find a way to go back in time

I don't wanna lose the things that made me proud

I don't wanna come undone way too soon

I can't give up now even if it's for you

If it's for you

If it's for you

Babe

(I don't wanna lose you)